Sunday, July 18, 2004
My brain still hurts from last night...
So the Dave Matthews concert was last night @ the Meadows. Well... at least that's what my ticket says. As for me, I don't remember much. You know, there's always ONE person in the group and last night unfortunately "I was THAT guy." Grilling was fun when we got there @ 4. Food was awesome... many laughs had by all. It's too bad I kinda lost track of how MANY I was throwing back. Oh well... no use bitching about my blurry night. Although... I'm still paying for it as I type this. Hopefully I'll wake up with my head on straight tomorrow...
Where was I? I re-read my last post and it got me thinking about probably things I shouldn't be thinking about. Forgive my vague post. Put it this way... if you know me well then you know what I'm talking about. And if none of this makes sense to you, then chances are it's none of your business. Nothing against you guys, but writing about it here helps. Anyway, watching movies like Spiderman 2 and Anger Management... Is it good/bad that I'm thinking about "things?" Let me just say that sometimes I wish my life was like the movies. I wonder what things would be like if I acted on my feelings like they do in the movies. Would my life take an unexpected turn for the best? Or would I just end up in a deeper hole than I already am. I almost feel like after watching these movies SOMEONE is trying to tell me something. I always say that I wish someone could tell me what to do when making difficult decisions. Are watching these types of movies SOMEONE's way of telling me what to do? I almost feel like someone is watching me saying, "GO FOR IT!!" You know, like you do when you watch movies. Ok enough about this... time to change the subject.
Life is unbelievable. Get ready readers... I'm about to take you on a ride. Perhaps I already touched on this a few months ago when I went off about how I was only 23 and how I had my WHOLE life ahead of me... but I've been rudely awaken that SO MUCH of these life is yet to be had. Holy crap. Here I am 23 years of age and I can honestly say that I feel like I've been through a LOT in my lifetime thus far. High School drama, highs and lows, vacations to Maine, four years @ UConn, the trials of relationships and friendships come and go and the triumph of victory vs. the agony of times in your life that you choose to forget. Welcome to the first chapter. I have been SO DAMN lucky in my life so far. Here I am complaining about the drama that my life has to offer when there are SO MANY problems that I haven't had to face. Well, had to face yet at least. I just finishing watching Mystic River and it got me thinking about this. Family Friends Loved Ones Neighbors - there is SO much in this life yet to encounter between me and the people I am in contact with. I guess watching this movie has gotten me to open my eyes a little wider. I'm only a single, 23 year old person and I have a lot waiting for me. You think you've been through a lot in your lifetime, Tony? Well get ready - cause you ain't seen nothing yet.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACK!!!! I'm writing this from Biddeford, ME. Hopped in my car this morning to join in the festivities of my godson's FIRST birthday. (Don't worry... the pictures are coming.) IT was great. His real birthday isn't until Tuesday but this is the best I could do. Coming up here already puts the mailroom in a difficult position with me gone tomorrow. Jack was great per usual. Mike's side of the family came and we had a wonderful time. The moment of the day goes to Jack diving into his VERY FIRST birthday cake. I think it took appox. 1.4 seconds before he had blue frosting in his hair. IT was histerical. Hard to believe it's been a whole year since Jack has been born. This time last year I was leaving Kristen's sister's wedding in Mystic, CT. Amazing what takes place in a year...
So the drama of my life continues to take shape. Due to the public audience that this post has I'm not going to disclose any names. I just want to say that you are in my prayers man. Whether it's a phone call, chilling, a beer, or anything at all... don't think for a second that I'm not there. Never under estimate the power of prayer and let me tell you that there are a lot of people out there praying for you. You WILL beat this.
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Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord, “You promised me Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child,
is when I carried you.”
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Good night...
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